13-11-09 (Friday) "Absence Makes the Heart Grow Fonder"

Today, I woke up to my list of things to do:

1) Nothing

Ahhhh.... How I have missed the feeling of guiltlessness for being idle.

08-11-09 (Sunday) "Ran... Wait for it... domness"

I don't get how "faster" works. Everyone runs and some just end up ahead of others. How come they can move their legs faster and push off harder? Their quads and calves? Yeah, sure but... I still dun understand how it works. We all try hard to be fast, no? Heheh... Weird question, sorry.

2 weeks to going back now...!!!! SO EXCITED!!! First, there's kampua... Then, rambutan, mangosteen n "mi4 gan1"(Honey mandarins) n maybe durians. I should try and be more productive this time round going back. Anyone need help with stuff over the break? Hmmm.... Maybe start off at home first. Okay... No movies or computer games...!! Well, at least not TOO much.

Something feels different about going back this time. Feels like there is much to happen, much to be done, much to achieve. Doesn't matter that its gonna be short. Its more a matter of what one sets out to do in the time given. Anyone in with me on this?

I will miss Canberra when I go back. But for now, I miss Miri.

Dang I just love this color accent feature on Canon IXUS!

Greatest love that anyone could ever know
That overcame the cross and grave to find my soul
~ "Till I See You"
Joel Houston
Hillsong

30-10-09 (Friday) "Reflection of a Future Life"

Having gone through almost a full year of university now, I've come to see that our lifestyle in university is a good reflection of how our lives will be in the future when in the workforce.

There're those who can't be bothered to cook, so they just eat out a lot (This applies more for self-catered hall residents).
Then there are those that spend most of their time trying to settle their work and try their best to avoid contact with other humans with work as an excuse.
Not forgotten are those that just find an excuse to not exercise or do anything physically demanding.
Also, there are those (albeit classified under 'Endangered', closing in on extinction) that work on their assignments the moment they're made available, and NOT a day or two before the due date.

Which leads me to my next point... God does not deserve the treatment we give Him.

How much time we give to God shows how high we rank God on our 'Priority List'. My heart cries out for those of us who only spare our excess time for God. When something of a certain level of significance pops up, we happily let it take over our "God-time". I am NOT saying this with a judgmental tone as I am in no position to do that. I am honestly pained by seeing my brothers- and sisters-in-Christ and myself in such situations and I pray that we eventually outgrow this, together.

After all... Which one is the one that will make you think, "I'm glad I spent more time on this back then" a few decades/centuries down the road?

I look forward to the day when I step off the plane and take you in slowly and firmly...
... Treasuring EVERY.SINGLE.MOMENT. With you...
... KAMPUA/KOLOK MEE!!!!

30-10-09 (Friday) "Thank God for Pain & Suffering"

Sometimes, I thank God for pain. (For simpleness sake, I refer to both "pain" and "suffering" when I mention "pain" in this post.)

If not for pain, I wouldn't be looking ahead to a better future.
If not for pain, I wouldn't have hope, as I would already be having an awesome time, pain-free. So why would I even have to hope?

If not for pain, I would not have learnt many of the things that I learnt.
If not for pain, I would not appreciate many of the things I am blessed with.

If not for pain, then heaven would be pointless, since we would already be having a blast here.
If not for pain, I wouldn't know that I'm human.

If not for pain, I wouldn't be able to tell others, "I know how you feel".
If not for pain, I wouldn't be taking care of myself as much as I should.

All in all... Thank God for pain and suffering. =)

I asked God for wisdom and I think the answer's sprouting inside my mouth.

25-10-09 (Sunday) "Lack of Control"

I enjoy the fact that the more we learn, the more we realize we don't know. Together with that, I enjoy how refreshing it feels everytime to learn something new.

That aside, most of us try to be in control of our lives. We control what we eat, what we do in our free time, what to say at our next interview... Or do we?

Anyway... We all try our best to get everything sorted out and under control. That's what I'm getting at.

Scene of "daisies" blooming at B & G on a bright, sunny spring day. Lovely, yes.
I just felt a relief just now when it dawned upon me that some things are just out of my control. I can plan an event so perfectly and then the weather just cracks things up. I can have my perfect studying schedule and suddenly some incident happens that interrupts everything as it takes precedence over my academics.

Scene at 12 Apostles, Victoria.
On the other hand, I can be having the worst possible day of my life and decide to just let the rest of the day rot away and someone just does something extraordinarily awesome that makes my whole day seem perfect. I can be all broke and in dire need of food for the next day or two and I am suddenly offered meals/excess food by others.

Also at 12 Apostles
I'm glad we don't have everything under our control. :)

24-10-09 (Saturday) "Spring Aggression"

Seems like its not just the ducks and birds getting all aggressive and protective come spring because of the mating season...

It seems like EVERYONE is busy pairing up right now... B & G (or probably ANU in general) is like some matchmaking haven as spring arrives!

Its crazy I tell you!

Hmmmm.... I think all the blossoming flowers and pollen in the air are doing something to people's feelings and hormones. Hmmm...

20-10-09 (Monday) "Time Period Reversal"

Thinking back 5 years ago...

Wow... I was Form 3 only back then. Probably sitting for/just finished my PMR, enjoying myself totally, making fun of all the Form 5 seniors of ours... Maybe still having some crush on some random person... Still the obnoxious, annoying little brat...

Much has changed. Much. In that 5 years, God has taken His sweet time to mold and shape me into who I am now. My friends have changed. My circle of friends have changes depending on where I end up in... So much change...

Now, I imagine myself being 45 or 50 years old and THEN think back 5 years or so...

Over the same period, I'd imagine that things wouldn't have seem to have changed much. I'd probably still be working the same job, everyone in the family are about the same (unless there're children around...),

It IS relative to how long you've lived, isn't it? When I was kid back in primary school, a year seems like its never gonna end. Heck, sitting down in church for an hour would seem even longer than anything I had to endure.

Now... Hours just fly by without me realizing... Suddenly I'm at the end of my 1st year. Gonna be 21 years old in no time... My goodness... If only time would slow down for me catch up.

Onto the MAIN point... Think of our lifetime in view of eternity. We live to 60, 70, maybe 80 plus years old. Change seems to happen over a longer and longer period of time. When we were young, we learn to NOT do something within 10 minutes of doing it (parents spank us straight after we do it ma...). Then, it probably takes a few days to learn from a mistake we did in some relationship... Following that, it would take up to weeks or months to change an attitude or perspective... Eventually... Our whole lifetime is spent on correcting(hopefully) our character. When we start living into eternity... This short lifetime of non-stop correction would seem relatively short, just like how we learned from that first spanking. And we start appreciating all that happened in this "short period".

Are you living this lifetime to improve yourself? Feels like you're getting nowhere? Don't give up on yourself yet... It just takes time. Keep at it. "Fight the good fight". You'll start to appreciate all that happens in this "short period of time" soon enough.

Most importantly...

You're not alone. =)

"Fight the good fight of faith."
~ 1 Timothy 6:12a
The Bible